7:55 pm - Sunday, Apr. 20, 2008
Sick and falling in love
I've been slowly dying the last week. I've been so sick. It's been a combination of a cold and probably a sinus infection. I really need to go to the doctor but I'm broke as a joke. And even if I did have the money, I can't get in to see my regular doctor because of an unpaid bill from like a year and a half ago. They got me flagged saying I can't go there unless I pay it. Back to being broke as a joke. And I don't know where else to go.

But I am feeling better at the current moment. That's due to the massive amounts of medication I've ingested. I'm a pill popping whore. I have so many different kinds of meds for anything. Just got to find the right combination to make me feel less shitty.

Anyway, I've given Jess my disease. So we are both sick. She came over the other night, sick as a dog like me. We had really wonderful sick sex. Apparently nothing stops us.

Oh, I adore this girl and I'm completely falling in love with her each and everytime I see her face. I have so many feelings and don't know what to do with them. I've told her I'm falling for her....and don't know when is the right time to tell her that I think I love her. She makes me feel like I'm the most special person in the world and this is so much more different than anything I've experienced before. We have a great relationship.

I will just be so glad when she's out of school for the summer. Just a short 2 weeks away. I can see her more. She's been busy with different papers she needs to write and studying for exams. She went away for the weekend to visit family and I have missed her terribly and won't get to see her again until Tuesday.

I will admit, it's been nice to just sit at home with nothing to do, but then again I'm so lonely without her.

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