11:32 pm - Tuesday, May. 01, 2007
Tessa is honestly in love
Yeah, totally still dying. I've admitted that I'm feeling as shitty as I really am. And Jess's mom is very sweet, trying to find me a place I can go see a doctor. She gave me some numbers and I'll call tomorrow to hopefully make an appointment on Friday after I get paid.

Her mom is surprising me. Only met me once and is offering to help me with the doctor thing and help me put an air conditioner in my bedroom so I don't slowly cook from the already stifling heat. The air conditioning in our apartment sucks ass. Only cooling off the downstairs and leaving the upstairs where the bedrooms are, like a sauna.

I have fabulous news though. I am loved and in love. Jess stayed over last night. And we got to talking and I could see there was something on her mind and I had something on mine. She was afraid to say it and so was I. She told me she loved me and I told her I loved her too.

It hasn't even been 2 months but I know how I feel. I think about her constantly, I care about her more than I thought I could about another person. The length of time doesn't matter because I've felt something there since the first night I met her. We clicked and keep finding reasons why we are right for each other. It's hard to explain, there is a lot feelings in me that are hard to bring out.

She makes me happy and that's most important. When I'm sad or mad, she can make me smile and change my mood instantly when I see her. Like the other day, I had the worst day at work. I was just really pissed off until she came over. And then I was so incredibly giddy as soon as she hugged me.

I love this girl and she completely has my heart.

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