11:07 pm - Friday, May. 23, 2008
Sharing and worrying
I'm kind of upset. Sara won't be getting to come home before she goes to Iraq. They took her leave away for what seems like no reason. She was so mad and I hate it. I wanted to see her. Haven't seen her since Christmas. And apparently she will be in Iraq up to 8 months. I miss her, I really do. I haven't talked her much since she told me she was going. It bothered me a lot that she volunteered. And I feel bad for not talking to her because I don't know what's going to happen and I'm afraid for the worst.

I'm a little moody lately. I feel mean. I miss Jess, even though I see her a lot. But when we are together, I want to be alone. That's very confusing. I love her, but being in a relationship is hard. I love being with her, she means the world to me. Sometimes it's overwhelming at how serious it's becoming with us. We talk about living together in the future and getting married, having babies. I love that because I care about her so much. But this is honestly the first serious relationship I've ever had and I don't know how to react to it. There are a lot of feelings there, it's confusing.

I guess I should just take it easy and deal with things day to day, instead of looking at the whole big picture. That's just too much to take in.

My roommates are gone for the weekend until Monday. I'm glad. Freedom to do what I want and enjoy the quiet. I'm off work on Monday and I'm so glad. I need a 3 day weekend.

Sunday, I'm going with Jess and her mom to see the new Indiana Jones movie and I'm thrilled. Love INDY. Her mom loves me, that's awesome. She's invited me to go to Branson, MO very soon and I'm excited. Never been there. Get to spend family time with Jess, her mom and her sister and have some fun shopping and going to Silver Dollar City. They have a house near there and that is where we will stay for the weekend.

I just got over a terrible bladder infection. That was fun, because I just got over a bad sinus infection. It's really funny, because Jess had a sinus infection, then I got one. Then she had a kidney infection and I got the bladder infection the next week. She had a stomach bug and gave it to me. I love how we share everything.

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